n2thabyss

I find myself in a very dark place lately; my relationships with everyone and everything are suffering and I need help to get out.

mental fog

I'm having a really, really off day today.

And by off, I mean that I feel like crying and running screaming out
of the office building is probably the best option.

i can't get anything accomplished today. If one more person bites my
head off, I might just lose it. Still no hot water. No car. No
answers. It feels like no one wants to help, no matter how or why I
ask. I just wanted to pick up my meds before i got on the bus to go
home :(

trying

I am trying very hard to not regret every bite of food that goes into
my body.
I am trying very very hard not to freak out about money.

I don't think all of my trying is getting me very far.

It's getting more and more difficult for me not to get sad about it.

antsy

I can't focus, but I can't relax.
I'm finding it impossible to concentrate even after clearing my desk
and creating a detailed to-do list.
I can't sit still, but my whole body is tired so moving around seems
like a huge effort.
I complain too much.

rough shape

so rough, in fact, that not being able to schedule a haircut until
tuesday of next week has me crying.
I need to go home.